I can still remember when people with money traveled with steamer trunks like the one pictured above. These were sturdy items meant to take abuse - and many of these cases did. Although I'm going on a cruise soon, the days of these trunks are long gone, and many have been repurposed for use as furniture. Even the luggage I had up to a couple of years ago is obsolete, as the goal now is to make a suitcase as strong and light as possible. This allows a person to carry more items (usually clothing) in a suitcase, and still not get hit with overweight charges when taking a flight.
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Today, I am thinking of the problems I might have when I tall one woman that I live a good portion of my life as Marian. Will she run away, as several other women have done? Or, will she be intrigued? How do I phrase things as not to scare this woman off? The woman I want to reveal myself to has baggage of her own. She has taken on a responsibility that few women would accept - all to help two people who are not in a position to help themselves yet. So there might be a positive ending, if we could see things through to a positive ending.
Right now, it's been over 2 years since a woman has shared a bed with me, and I miss the experience. Yet, this period has been one of growth. I've had to learn NOT to lean on two people I once depended on - and I've come out OK. (I wonder how well one of them is doing - but I'm not going to ask about it.) It seems that losing important people in my life causes emotional growth spurts for which I see things differently at the end of the process.
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I have more baggage than just being Marian. But I only plan to show it to someone who is comfortable trusting me enough to see all of her baggage. I wonder how long it will take for that to happen....
