Believe it or not, there is a wall in Seattle which is covered with chewing gum. Yecch! But this wall has become one of the scenic attractions of the city. Although the original gum is being steam cleaned from the wall, visitors will be able to apply new gum to the wall after it is cleaned.
I am envious of people who have a lot of friends who will call them up to do things. I was never that lucky. Even now, the consequences of being a loner all of these years has caught up with me in the age of the pandemic. I made up for being alone by trying to attend social events open to the public, and hen traveling to places where I'd be forced to socialize a little. Now that the pandemic has cut off those social venues, the loneliness of my life has returned.
Strangely enough, being Marian opened me up to new people and experiences. The dispute with my ex had repercussions which may have resulted in me no longer having access to certain social venues I depended on before the pandemic hit. Although we will always look at our dispute differently, there is much more to what happened than either of us need to discuss anymore. And belaboring the points will only hurt the two of us if we continue down that road.
There is a big part of me that misses my daily calls to two people no longer in my life. Since I doubt that they will ever be back in my life as regular confidants, I have to make do in my own way. But it is not as good as it was a couple of years ago. Hopefully, things will change for the better as the pandemic recedes into history. Until then, I will try to make do and take one day at a time.
