I look terrible in the above picture, don't I? the way I'm dressed makes it obvious that I am a male trying to dress androgynously. But that's OK for me, as this was the first time I wore female clothes in public with no one giving me emotional support. Today, I wasn't even in the mood to go this far in my presentation, as the only place I was heading was to the supermarket.
Not living 24x7 as Marian, I have the option of going out as Mario. Given that it was already 7:00 pm when I took my daily shower, there was no way I was going to be able to go out as Marian and still make it to the supermarket on time. So I got dressed as Mario and ran over to the Stop & Shop nearby to pick up fixings for dinner.
If I were living 24x7 as Marian, there are so many things that would be different. For example, I'd have lost 100 pounds off my frame, and then have gotten some facial surgery to make my face more androgynous. I might have also spent money on a tracheal shave, as well as electrolysis to remove the remainder of my facial hair. If possible, I'd have gotten some hair transplants to make it possible to spend time en-femme without needing to wear a wig, Until I can do this, I have to make a decision every time I go out my door - do I want to be Mario or Marian? And today, Mario won out....
