Today's post will be a quick one, as I don't have much to say today.
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Recently, I've been saying "No" to attending meetup groups more often than I want to bother attending them. This amazes me after all the "Sturm und Drang" I was dealing with last year.
Right now, I'm bored with people. Dating is a hassle, and there are times that I can't bother with the effort. Even though I feel a little lonely at times, the effort of leaving my shell often takes up more energy I want to expend in the process.
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Could you say that I am depressed? Maybe. Yet, I feel like I'm still recovering from the disaster that was 2020. I was hurt by two of the people I cared about most (In one case, I was not the innocent party. But that's another story told elsewhere - such as in my prior blog, which is no longer available to anyone.) I spent so much energy trying to find ways to connect with people that I ignored the connections I already had.
Until things fully get back to normal, I don't know how well I can recharge. But I know that being able to interact with the world as Marian will be part of the process.
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