I wish I could look in the mirror and see this face, knowing that the body connected to is would be fully in sync with the image. Alas, this was not meant to be. My face, like the rest of my body, shows the wear and tear of living a different life. But I am not complaining about that, nor am I pining for something that can not be. Life is a path, that for most of us has its obstacles and challenges, but can have its rewards for making it through without losing your mind or your humanity.
Lately, I get up in the morning and find that I have nothing urgent to take care of. Life wasn't this way when I had a job to go to. Just the fact that I had a job that had to get done gave meaning to life - even when I worked at that mind numbing job with the imaging company. Now, having people to see and trips to take gives me a reason to get up in the morning.
The other day, I saw BXM for lunch before she had to go to work. (She has a flexible schedule.) And she was the happiest that I ever saw her. When I first met her, she was taking care of a father whose mind and body were gradually leaving him. Now, she's being energized by helping children get their lives together, as well as having a good home life with her partner.
Not everyone is doing well. I just had a letter from an old friend, and he told me that his wife had to go through a double mastectomy. Although she's "triple negative" and going through the 5 years needed to be labeled as "Cured", it must have been hell for her. This is where I wish my late wife had survived, so that she could console this friend's wife in her time of need.
Another person I know doesn't know enough about how to escape her dead-end "career". Although she has been told about paths she could take to exit the dead-end, she hasn't done so. Over time, many of these doors will be closed to her, and she may end up regretting taking the chances she needs to take to escape from a life that is doomed to both keep her poor and without a decent person to accompany her along the path of life.
For all of my friends, I wish that their lives will improve each day, and that they will be able to grasp success from the claws of failure. As for me, I don't ask for much, as I already have most of what I want and all of what I need....
