No, don't think that I feel that I'm being paranoid. It's simply the random rolls of the dice that are getting to me today.
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Lately, I've been reserving Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays to be with RQS. Unfortunately, she was sick last weekend, and will likely be sick this coming weekend. (She's playing it safe, keeping away from people for a minimum of five days, as per CDC recommendations.) So, that leaves me with a Friday I can spend with others. One problem - I'm already booked to see one person for lunch, and two other people want my time as well.
A week ago, FH suggested that we get together on a Friday for a leaf peeping trip in the Hudson Valley. This is the type of trip I want to do with RQS before all the leaves are off the trees. Another woman (from a meetup group) wants to change our dinner night from a Monday to a Friday, as her work schedule has changed. If I were unattached, I'd have no problems seeing either of these women. But I am attached, and do not want to risk what I have with RQS for a "distant" friendship.
I don't mind putting off Friday's lunch date for a week to see one of these two women, but I don't like making anyone unhappy. So, I might have to let FH go, since she's the higher maintenance one of the two women. (The other two know me, and see me as Marian. FH only sees Mario. This becomes a simple choice for me, but one that will sadden me a little.)
