OK - To help understand things, I care about my brother very much. But he's not the tyoe of person I'd associate with if we weren't related. He's impulsive, and doesn't like to explore ideas before taking action. He gets stuck thinking inside the box, while I think from the outside in. For example: I'd consider secretly giving nukes to Ukraine (only for use if Kyiv were to fall to Russian forces, or if Russia were to be the first to use nukes in their war), as well as doing the same for Taiwan (for use only if invaded by the mainland). When I said this, my brother shifted and said - then what would happen if China then sent nukes to Iran? Then shut off the exploration on the topic. He may see danger, but he can't explore ideas which when explored might result in a realistic solution to a problem. He is very fixed in his way of thinking, and I'd never trust him with knowing about my life as Marian.
Now that I have discussed my brother and his narrowness of thought, I can pleasantly turn to RQS. She's a blessing, as I've said many times. Well, the other day, she let something slip (probably as a joke) about an interest in females. We were looking at a couple of VLoggers and I said that if I were 30 again, I wouldn't turn her out of bed - and she said something similar about the woman. Maybe that's how she can accept me presenting as Marian. Who knows?
There are many types of love, and some of them are very strange. I may not have the passion I imagined having for a "next girlfriend" when I'm with RQS. But I care for her very much. She's a good fit for me, and I'm glad that I have the love appropriate for a senior citizen for her, instead of the short lived passion of youth. Hopefully, we will have many good years together.
