Although I dropped RQS off at the train station today, I don't have much to say about it except that she will return in a coupe of days. Instead, my focus will be on the time I spent with Vicki nd my thoughts about that lunch date.
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Once I dropped RQS off at the station, I killed a little time before Vicki came to pick me up for our lunch date. The first thing on our docket was a stop at J.Jill to return two garments that she mail ordered but didn't want to keep. So it was off to the Westchester mall in White Plains. Vicki thought she could get in and out of the mall within 20 minutes, and not get charged the $4 for parking. (She's losing a sense of time, now that she's not working. But that's something that gradually happens to retirees.) Neither of us saw anything we were interested in the mall, both of us feeling a sense of sterility about the place. Hardly anyone was there, and neither of us wanted to spend any more time there than we had to.
Vicki was in a mood today, taking control of the conversation when I wanted to explain my feelings. She has stronger feelings about my exes and my late wife than I do - and she is likely projecting her feelings about her past relationships onto mine in this conversation. Later on, she mentioned that she sees me as being authentic in my living life as a woman. She noted that for me, it's not putting on an act like Drag performers. It is truly wanting to be seen and treated as a woman. She disagrees with me about the things I need to do (partial facial feminization surgery, FFS), noting that my face isn't strongly as masculine as I feel it is.
After lunch, we drove back to Croton (with a stop at the Blue Pig for ice cream), and she dropped me off at my apartment. Shortly afterward, I went to Walmart in search of pillow protectors and pillowcases for a new pillow I bought the other day. Unfortunately, I couldn't find the pillow protectors and will need to buy them from Amazon. At least, this wasn't a totally wasted trip.
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