Jack Benny. There is an old joke about him getting mugged. The mugger says: "Your money or your life," waits a long time for a response from Jack. The mugger says "Well?" and Jack says: "I'm thinking! I'm thinking!" Well, I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, and want to get some off my chest.
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I find it amazing that shortly after I sensed that I had processed much of the grief over losing a relationship with XGFJ, that I started to sense grief welling up from the loss of FCP as a friend. Yet, this grief was easier to manage, as I didn't have to process other grief at the same time. There is only so much deep loss a person is equipped to deal with, and I had too much hit me in too short a time.
Things are going well with RQS. She's far from the type of person I'd seek out. She's not tall, she doesn't have blond hair, and she lives in an area where car ownership can be a big liability. So seeing her becomes a scheduling issue - for my car. Things weren't as bad for me when I dated Ex-GF-M, as her area was less densely populated.
Due to scheduling issues, I've again had to cancel going to some meetups. Work, Co-Op board issues, and dating have gotten in the way of going to meetups - and I don't mind this too much.
I'm still ambivalent about quitting my job. I like having new money come into my bank account, as I don't want to drain my savings accounts if I don't have to do so. Yet, because of issues with my car, I have decided that I must soon start looking for a new car. I hate doing this now. But with a car that has 180k miles on the odometer, it's time to do so. (My issues with the slow leak are the tip of the iceberg in this area.)
Assuming that I quit my job soon, I'm looking at taking a short Bermuda cruise. Until I make a decision on employment, I won't schedule this cruise.
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As Jack would say: "I'm Thinking...."
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