I have touched on this theme before - if I have no reason to get up in the morning, I simply do not do so. And I've been doing this a lot lately, as I have no energy to get up and do things.
Since I decided to stop working, I have only gotten up early if I had something to do. Otherwise, I'd wake up late and stay up late. There is no routine I have to follow, and I am much more relaxed. Yet, I'm afraid of becoming a couch potato like my dad was, and then being unable to take care of himself in his old age.
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Last night, I chatted with RQS and she said that she needed another pedicure and asked if we could go to the nail salon when she arrives for the weekend. Since I wanted to get my nails done as well, I said that if we did so on a Friday, I'd have to be in Marian Mode all weekend. Knowing that she likes to see Mario, I figured that this would get her to think about doing the pedicure on Sunday before she leaves for her place.
Even though it is left unsaid, I know I am walking a tightrope as I expose RQS to my Marian presentation. I always want her to know that Mario is always there for her, no matter how I'm presenting at the moment. One of the things I learned as I examined the failure of my last relationship is that we didn't communicate enough. XGFJ always thought that a hint would be enough for me to know what is going on in her head, while I knew that important things had to be bluntly stated. In my current relationship, I make sure to "reward" RQS for speaking her mind - especially if it's not an easy thing to say.
So far, encouraging RQS to be open with her feelings has worked for me, as well as the slow approach I've taken to getting her used to my Marian presentation. Hopefully, things will keep working out well for the two of us - she's a good reason for me to enjoy waking up in the morning in retirement....
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