I went to the doctor today, and he saw signs that made him want to have a liver scan done on me. I've put this off for a long while, and don't relish going in for a simple scan. Why, you might ask? Maybe, I'm hiding from reality. And maybe, I simply don't care. This is why I wish I had a good therapist I could trust with both my eating issues and my gender issues.
Years ago, I broke up with Patty, then Ex-GF-M because of eating issues. Both were good people, but they were triggering my food addiction. Since then, I've never been able to restore the drive I once had to lose weight and live a more healthy lifestyle. I've simply become complacent. And I'm paying the price for being complacent.
Hopefully, this will be a wake-up call in the nick of time, as I want to stay healthy enough to live a longer life than I expect to live, now that I have someone I really care about in my life. But it will take major changes in my life to do so. At least, there will be one major non-health related benefit - I will be able to buy a new wardrobe that fits me well and looks better on me.
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