It's hard to believe that today would have been my 36th wedding anniversary. And I've been widowed for over twice as many years as we were married. Do I miss my wife? Yes. There are only two other women who got that much of my heart, and both of those relationships were failures.
Would my wife have accepted this side of me? Who knows? But I can say that she accepted me wearing my feminine frills at home. So there was a good chance that she might have accepted the Marian side of me as long as I presented myself well.
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It is acceptable in our society for a woman to present herself in a "masculine" way. But it is generally not acceptable for a man to present himself in a "feminine" way. For the life of me, I'll never understand this with the rational side of my mind. But I can understand it with the more primitive side of my mind, as it has over 60 years of social programming to reinforce these views. Hopefully, this will change for today's youth....
