Lately, I've been waking up in the middle of a sleep cycle for no good reason. So, I feel tired when I go in to work, and my productivity is down until lunch time. It doesn't help that I am naturally awake late in the evening, and the effects of sleep deprivation have set in.
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When I was dating XGFJ, I always had problems with her nestling in my arm in bed. It is not a romantic problem - it's an issue with RQS as well, but she accepts that I will need to shift my body now and then to keep comfortable. The difference is simple - we communicate better now. My previous relationship failed because of poor communication, and I wish it had ended earlier, so that we could have stayed close friends.
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Going away for a short trip has its own problems. In my case, if I don't bring my CPAP machine with me, I will fall back to having my sleep apnea cause me problems. When I was with XGFJ, she noted that the machine trained my subconscious to keep my airways unobstructed. RQS notices that I sleep better with the machine, and has no problem with my use of the machine.
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Even when all things are going right, there's a part of me that's restless. If no one is with me, this is not an issue. But, if someone is staying over, I can't just get up and put my thoughts into this blog. Yet, I have less and less to say on a regular basis, and I am thinking of giving this blog a break for a while. (I'll bet that FCP will be happy with that, as it was my previous blog that caused our rift (and, according to FCP, signaled the end of our relationship to XGFJ.))
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Luckily, I can get my sleep on weekends. It's not enough. But it will have to do until I retire.
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