Lately, it seems to me, that I've been complaining about things going on in the world too much. Yes, Our rights as transgender people are under attack, and our president is "owned" by Russia, and is doing Russia's bidding. Yet, I am grateful to live in a state where I can come and go as my authentic self, without worry that I will be hassled by any law enforcement authority.
Yet, I've noticed something. For reasons other than fear, I haven't been getting outside of my place enough and living an authentic life. Could it be the weather? (As I write this, it is raining outside.) Could it be commitments I have that requires me to present as Mario? (I had to go out as Mario in order to buy a new Mattress and Bed Frame last night.) Could it be anything else? (I did spend part of the day sorting out some of the containers behind my loveseat.) There have been so many things that I needed to do, that I have felt a little overwhelmed and have retreated into my comfort space.
One has to keep one's focus on what's important, so that can take care of the most important things first. I may not have been doing that. Yesterday, I worked around the house, possibly to avoid spending the money I knew I'd have to spend on new bedding. It could be much worse. My brother is putting in 50-60 hours each week in a job for which should only need 40. He also has to deal with fire department financials, managing the project of bringing the family homestead into a shape where we can raise the rent on the place, and to prepare financials for the house, so that I can get my taxes done. And, to top it all off, he is flying out west to see my nephew for the weekend.
As you can see, there are other people who are under more stress than I am. But I expect that we all will start to suffer if the orange snowflake does half the damage to America that he could be doing. If you find yourself starting to be overwhelmed by fear and worry about the future, just remember these words that are applicable in almost every situation:
"This too, shall pass."
The trick will be to keep one's perspective while it passes....
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