Around this time last year, I was walking through New York City, not knowing how much my life was going to change within less than a few month's time. If I had known what was about to happen in my life and in the world, I'd have blown a wad and taken a trip to Hawaii while it was still possible. Sadly, too much has happened since then, and the world as we knew it is long gone....
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There are still some things I'd like to repair with my ex girlfriend. Right now, I'm working on rebuilding some form of friendship and nothing more. I won't say more, as there are limits to how close we could become based on what happened in 2020.
I wonder what my dad would be thinking had he known he was going to pass away in 2020. Would he have blamed the lack of an adequate virus response on Trump? Or, would he have accepted the man's bullshitting and believed the malarkey being put out by this man and his underlings? I don't think he'd have thought about it too deeply, as my dad was a relatively simple, down to earth person.
Sometimes, I think about a former travel partner. She was way too open with her feelings, and she often made bad decisions about people. In many ways, I feel she was lonely and found that her pets became her way of dealing with many of those feelings. (She spoiled her pets rotten.) I see similar behaviors in TCL, but not to such pronounced extremes. And I think that TCL's recent adoption of two cats a positive influence in her life.
Knowing that things would be over with my ex, I think I'd have become a regular at the church I irregularly attended. No, I am never going to be a religious person. Instead, it would have been more of a place to socialize now and then. We all need social outlets, and I would have made sure to develop more of my own - even while dating the ex.
Should I totally forget about the ex? What about the former cruise partner?
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As I write this entry, it's New Year's Eve. There are things I want to accomplish this coming year, one of which is finding a new job. That is a realistic resolution. Getting out to exercise more (and losing weight) is another resolution, one that I plan to do more on this coming year. Improving both my wardrobes is important, as I want to look nice in either presentation. Finally, I'd like to find someone I can love (and be loved by in return). FH will likely not be that person, and none of the other women I've been with so far meet my criteria for someone to be with in the long term.
PS: For those of you who care about The King - Today is Elvis's Birthday.
