I'll always wish I could look like the female version of my face in the picture above. She looks happy and secure in herself. No matter how much I try, I can never snap my fingers and be the cisgender female version of who I could have been if I were born with two X chromosomes. At least, if I can improve my health by losing some weight, I could get some facial feminization surgery and make my face look more like an older version of the woman above.
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Today, I did nothing for most of the day, even though I got dressed early in the afternoon. I originally thought that I might go into NYC and see an Off-Broadway play. But I didn't want to get moving early enough to do so. Instead, I decided to leave the house around dinner time and looked in my closet for something warm to wear - and found a leather jacket I haven't worn in years. So, I put it on and went out the door.
My first stop was at Mickey D's for a couple of burgers, and then to BJ's to walk around. $42 later, I was loading my car and driving home. On the way home, I returned the call from our co-op's president, and we discussed some things that needed to be done. And all too soon, I was home, stripping off my stockings, my dress, my bra, and everything that a woman would find uncomfortable after a day at work. (This, even though I haven't had a job in years.)
Once comfortable, I signed some papers for the co-op, then put some ribs in the slow cooker for tomorrow's dinner. (I may bring some cooked ribs to RQS's place this weekend if I'm in the mood to do so.) And finally, I was able to rest for the night.
