Normally, I try to stay in a single presentation for the entire day. This makes things much simpler for me. Once I move my ID and money into the correct wallet, I can be sure that I'm carrying all 3 needed items I need to show a police officer if my car is stopped. (I also move my AAA card, as I've been in need of a tow while in my female presentation.) This was not going to be a "half and half" day, as I only needed to be out as Mario for an hour, and I'd be out as Marian until I returned home late in the evening.
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Last night, GFJ and I were chatting around 2 am. We caught up on the past day, and then she asked a question - Did Patty know about me being TG? I told her that she may have had some inklings when we were going together in the early 2000's, but I was not out and about way back when. I have to assume that GFJ is still sorting things out in her mind, and that my TG nature is an important issue to her.
When I finally got up late this morning, I knew I'd have to present as a male for part of it. There was a book (on hold) waiting for me at the library, and there was a prescription waiting for me at the drug store. Since I could not do these things without revealing my legal identity, I had to go out as Mario for a couple of hours before coming home to change into my female presentation and go out as Marian for the evening.
Once home, I started getting ready to go out as Marian. Off came the boy clothes, with a plan to put on the girl clothes before seeing JS for a movie and a bite to eat. While at home, I decided to wrap gifts for my family and for GFJ. However, I couldn't find the locking diary in the stores for the daughter of Thursday night's meetup's Christmas Gift. So I finally broke down and subscribed to Amazon Prime, so that I could get her gift in my hands before the next game night.
While writing the earlier parts of this entry, I got a message from JS - her dog had to go to the vet for a canine emergency. It seems as if every time we agree to get together, some event gets in the way. Yes, I have often been unavailable on weekends, as I have always given GFJ first claim on my time. (She is a special woman to me, and I've said as much to her.) But now, I have the freedom to schedule weekend time with JS, and she still has excuses. Given what I've mentioned about her and her family in the past, I'll bet that she is having serious budget problems as well as problems with her daughter. And these problems are getting in the way of her having a healthy social life. (These problems are also the cause of her former financial planner abandoning JS to her own devices, as JS would not do the things needed to get her life in order.) As for me, I'd rather not allow JS to lean too much on me, as I don't want to be in a codependent relationship with anyone.
Now that JS had to postpone our get together, I had to figure out what to do for the rest of the evening. Did I continue my preparations to go out as Marian and see a movie? Or, did I do something else? I ended up staying in for the night.....
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