Lately, I have been feeling down in the dumps because of a few minor things. But I can sum it up in a simple phrase that could be worrisome if I didn't know myself: "The Thrill Has Gone."
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Since my then girlfriend and I broke up in 2019, I haven't found a new spark to ignite my passions.The woman I called FH in this blog and I stopped seeing each other this spring. The woman I call MWL and I have developed a non-physical relationship. Given my experiences with the late Ex-GF-M, I don't think I can afford to open up too much to her - even though she is accepting of Marian AND does some exercise. Part of me wants to have a romantic relationship, but is no longer thrilled by the effort it takes to have one. But being alone is also unfulfilling.
If my "large" apartment was as neat, tidy and organized as the one in the picture, I'd probably be able to invite people now and then. Alas, it's messy enough to keep me from getting any value out of having a cleaning lady come over. Sooner or later, I'll have to try to get my cleaning lady back, and see if she can take over where she left off before the pandemic set in.
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The other day, I got an email saying that an interview had been scheduled for me with the New York Court system. However, when I needed to print a document so that I could physically sign it, my printer ran out of ink. Wouldn't you know it - I couldn't find any of the ink cartridges I had in my apartment. So I'll have to go out and buy new ones. AARGH!
I talked to the hostess of my Yonkers gaming group, and told her of the Court System interview. She advised me to go as Mario. And this is what I already planned to do before speaking with her. This woman is a good resource for me, as she has her finger on the pulse of what is going on in the real world.
If I were to get the job, it'll feel a little strange going to work in trousers again. But I found that being Marian helps keep me sane; this presentation just doesn't need to be an everyday occurrence. Too bad that some people didn't understand this....
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