By the time you read this post, I should be back from my cruise. I figure that I'll have a lot to write about in the time I was gone. Did I overcome my anxiety? Did I really have anything major to worry about? How did our time in London go with my niece? So many questions, and I hope to be able to answer them here.
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There's a part of me that wishes that my friends could all get their acts together and live the best lives that they can live. Unfortunately, I often meet people who can't get out of their own way (such as DCD) or who are afraid to leave their comfort zones (such as MAR). This can be frustrating, as one invests a certain amount of emotional energy into every friendship, and it's frustrating to see people fail when success should be in their grasp. For example, do I expect to see DCD get his car on the road? No. Given the screw-ups he has had in getting the car out of my parking lot and getting to DMV to register the car, I expect that the car will die of neglect. MAR has a similar method of failure, as she is unable to follow through on advice given to her to escape her current dead-end career. Do I expect to see her apply for a job at the post office? No. She'll likely make excuses for why she hasn't done so.
The key difference between me and these friends is that I eventually leave my comfort zone to grow. Going out and about as Marian was scary at first. But it is now second nature. The other day, I wrote to the Bermuda board of tourism and found out that I should not have any problems with being gender non-conforming. However, I am waiting for a response from their Immigration department to be safe. (If I don't get one, I'll ask the security people at the pier when I'm there in Mario mode.) Growth is not always comfortable. And by the time you read this, I'll have grown a little as a seasoned traveler..
