Ever since I was little, I was envious of the women in the movies, as they could wear long, flowing dresses and no one would think strangely of them. My TV was capable of showing Black & White images, while most of the movies on TV then were Monochrome films. The aspect ratio of both the TV and the images on film were 4x5, and that was good enough for me.
As I grew older, I never grew out of the wish to wear dresses as part of my everyday life, and take on a woman's role. No, I did not fancy myself being with a man. The subconscious image I had of myself was a large, but attractive woman - sort of the woman my wife was when I married her. Although my wife knew of my interest in wearing women's clothes, the only time she said NO to it was on our wedding night. Too bad she couldn't have seen me now. But then, would I have crossed one bridge too far?
Over the past 10+ years, I have built up a large feminine wardrobe, most of the garments being dresses. Several times, I've gotten to the point where I have to prune the contents of my closet to make way for new garments. And another round of pruning will be coming up soon. My only question will be: which garments will I be pruning?
If you were to look at my closet, I probably have more dresses than I could wear in a month. Couple this with the contents of my storage containers, and I could fill up another donation bag with clothes that will go to charity. Although I do not like wearing trouser like garments, I still have those I wore to the imaging firm I worked at between 2022 and 2023. Will I get rid of them (and the tops I wore with them)? Probably not. I still want to blend in with as many cisgender females as possible. But I will cull the cheap stuff from my closet while I replace it with better quality clothing.
Unlike most transgender people, I have had the luxury of buying new garments and upgrading them over time. I have also had enough room (and privacy) to store my female clothes without having to hide them away from a wife, family, or friends. And most of all, I have a girlfriend (I should say, partner) who has no problems with me presenting as Marian.
Now if only I could get her comfortable with me having breasts of my own....
